A teacher is a mother

In the name of Allah the most merciful

KHALISAH: Mudarisah, sy tgk mudarisah macam mak.

SAYA: macam mak? kenape?

KHALISAH: macam mak.. mudarisah betulkan tudung, mcm mak sy.

SAYA: yeke.. memang awak anak mudarisah kan? anak murid mudarisah tu anak mudarisah lah (saya senyum)

KHALISAH: (tersipu malu)

Diatas adalah perbualan saya dengan sorang anak murid darjah 1. oh ye, saya kat sekolah, diorang panggil mudarisah=guru perempuan. Khalisah ni pulak adelah salah sorang anak didik saya, dia mengaji iqra' dengan saya.. 

tahun ini masuk tahun kedua saya menjadi seorang guru..tahun kedua saya mengajar (di sekolah ini lah. kalau termasuk mengajar ditempat lain, masuk tahun ketiga).. Dan sepanjang tempoh saya bergelar guru, banyak yang telah saya belajar. yang paling banyak saya belajar adalah sifat 'SABAR'. ye, jadi seorang guru kepada pelajar tahun pra dan sekolah rendah memerlukan kesabaran yang tinggi! ape, ingat budak2 kecik ni setakat comel je ke? hmmh baguslah kalau camtu. diorang ni punya perangai....fuuuhhhhhhh...(hela nafas dengan perlahan-lahan)... ade yang taat pada guru, ada yang selalu lupa, ade yang terlalu aktif, ade yg suke menjerit-jerit, ade yang suke nangis, ade yang suke carik gado..dan macam-macam perangai. kadang-kadang saya rasa sangat kasih kat pelajar2 saya ni sampai rasa nak peluk cium dan bagi chocolate banyak2 je. tapi kadang-kadang rase macam nak lempang je. lempang??! oh ekstrimnya seorang guru berkeinginan untuk melempang anak muridnya! oh tak.. perasaan nak lempang ni hanya untuk special case sahaja ye.harap maklum. special case tu ditujukan untuk seorang murid perempuan ni je. budak darjah 3. suke sangat mengamuk tak tentu pasal. kalau mengamuk sendiri2 takpe jugak.. ni tidak..bila mengamuk, dia menyakiti kawan2 dy, dia koyakkan buku kawan2 dia, dia patahkan pensel, lead pensel dan pembaris kawan2 dia, dia baling kerusi meja dekat orang. budak sorang ni kalau mengamuk memang ekstrim.  saya rasa dia ade masalah mental/psychology dan perlukan rawatan. ibu bapa budak ni dah bercerai, dan dari pengamatan saya, masalah budak ni berpunca dari family. dia takde adik beradik dan kini hanya tinggal dengan ibu dia. bila budak ni buat perangai, rase geram tapi rasa kesian. saya banyak kali sarankan guru besar sekolah suruh ibu dia bawak pegi jumpa kaunselor atau psychologist..tak taulah kenapa ibu dia tak bawak jugak.. ibu dia pun macam asyik sibuk urusan kerja..dan dari apa yang saya nampak, ibu dia ni jugak mengalami tekanan..raut wajahnya penuh dengan masalah dan tekanan.

A teacher is a mother- itu frasa yang saya guna.. dan saya pegang.. bagi saya, guru bukan hanya guru.. guru juga adalah ibu bapa bg murid2 ketika disekolah.. bagaimana ibu bapa mendidik anak-anak dengan penuh kasih sayang, guru juga perlu mendidik murid2 dengan penuh kasih sayang.. tugas guru bukan hanya menyampaikan ilmu, tetapi juga mendidik anak-anak.. guru perlu mengenali murid-muridnya dan perlu pandai mendekati murid-murid. perlu pandai bermain dengan psychology kanak-kanak. Guru juga perlu faham bahawa tidak semua muridnya bijak pandai..ada yang cepat faham dan ada yang lambat faham, jadi guru perlu lebih sabar untuk memahamkan murid-murid.. tidak perlu marah murid apabila murid tidak faham atau tidak dapat menjawab soalan dengan betul. bukan pilihan murid itu untuk jadi bijak atau tidak. guru perlu menjaga lidah dari mengata benda yang tak baik pada murid. mengata belakang pun jangan! kata2 guru tu adalah doa.. kalau marah murid kata "LEMBAB!", nescaya lembablah murid itu... pray for them more, instead of cursing them. bila murid lambat tangkap dan dah penat kte ulang tapi masih tak dapat, peganglah kepala murid dan doalah supaya allah terangkan hati dan mudahkan faham budak ini.

benar..tugas seorang guru bukanlah mudah.. kerjanya sehari-hari sangat memenatkan, melelahkan.. tugas mendidik bukan mudah! perlu bercakap sepanjang hari, meninggikan suara untuk mengatasi suara anak2 murid yang bising, memikirkan bermacam-macam kaedah untuk memudahkan anak murid faham, berulang-ulang memberikan penjelasan, berkali-kali memberikan teguran, dan sebagainya.. apabila murid terkencing dalam seluar dan merasa takut atau malu, guru perlu tahu cara untuk menenangkannya dan memberi murid support untuk tak kencing dalam seluar lagi. bila murid pakai tudung tak betul atau nampak rambut, betulkan. bila murid jatuh dan nangis, pujuklah..bila murid sakit, tak selesa, dan memerlukan perhatian, guru perlu memberikan perhatian dan menenangkan murid.. bila murid bergaduh, guru perlu pandai meleraikan pergaduhan, menegur dan dalam masa yang sama menasihati murid. jika guru salah cara, mungkin akan membuatkan murid rasa 'berat sebelah' atau terasa seperti guru tidak mempercayainya apabila beliau cuba untuk membela diri.. dalam semua perkara yang guru lakukan, guru perlu mengambil langkah bijak supaya dapat mendidik jiwa murid dengan baik dan supaya murid membesar dengan personaliti yang sihat. susahkan jadi guru? sentiasa kena buat fikir and uat penilaian camane nak deal dgn budak2, camane cara yg terbaik nak didik budak-budak.

tu baru dari segi jiwa. dari segi pembelajaran pulak, guru kena fikir mcm mana nak bagi murid rajin belajar. yg ni susah betul lah bila kita kene mengajar subjek2 yang tak interesting, boring dan susah bagi murid. contohnya subjek saya: TAJWID. saya masih ingat, waktu saya sekolah dulu pun saya tak suka tajwid dan saya rasa tajwid ni susah giller! tapi bile dah besar ni, belek2 buku tajwid, rasa takdelah susah pun. pelik kenapa budak2 rasa susah? hmm boleh buat kajian. i think, mindset yang buat rase susah. jadi sekarang ni saya sebagai guru tajwid, perlu fikir cara untuk bagi budak mudah nak faham tajwid dan juga perlu ubah mindset diorang yang kata tajwid susah! 

tak senang jadi guru...semoga Allah mudahkan tugas saya... dan berkati usaha saya.. semoga Allah mudahkan faham anak-anak murid saya..semoga Allah berikan kejayaan dunya akhirat kpd anak-anak murid saya..

kepada yang nak jadi guru, teruskan usaha! guru tugas mulia inshaAllah, walaupun sukar. kepada yang memang dah jadi guru, marilah kita sama-sama membaiki diri kearah yang lebih baik.. jadilah guru dan ibu kepada murid2 kita.. didik dan ajarlah dengan kasih sayang, dan bersabarlah dengan murid2, sebagaimana seorang ibu bersabar dengan anaknya. kepada yang bukan seorang guru tapi seorang ibu, seorang ibu juga adalah seorang guru kpd anaknya, maka didiklah juga dengan baik, penuh dgn kasih sayang dan wisely. semoga anak-anak kita menjadi insan cemerlang dunia akhirat. AMEEN!

May Allah bless you!

 Love,

Dedicated to ummi and abah

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith coz you believed
Em everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

im gonna get married tak lama lagi.. in few months time InshaAllah.. tak lama lagi hak milik diri ini akan bertukar dari hakmilik ummi abah, jadi hak milik mr fadhil-suami-to-be. i really feel thankful and grateful for all the things they had done for me.. for the love, the care, the happiness, the patience, and for everything.. every single thing they had done for me, that i cant even pay back.. just by thinking about them moved me to tears.. agak-agaknye bile hari nikah nanti nangis tak? both elder sisters of mine tak nangis pun mase nikah. hepi je. but i wonder camne lah time aku nanti ek... but i think i will cry hehe.

ummi abah, thank you..thank you so much for these 23 years of raising me with love and patience.. i love both of you so much and just so you know, now I'm Everything I am, Because You Loved Me.

thank you

May Allah bless you!

love,
The princess

err.. ENGAGED??

In the name of Allah the most merciful

After the families meeting, I asked fadhil about her mother’s , father’s and sister’s opinion on me and my family. His father’s and sister’s responds were positive. But for the mother, she still didn’t give the answer. Fadhil said, she just smiled.

The next day fadhil told me that her mother got good impressions on me. Alhamdulillah. But still not very sure whether she give the green light or not. I asked fadhil what were her mother’s expectations before meeting me. He said, her mother said:

“nak tengoklah ana ni pakai tudung ke tak, solat ke tak, baik budi pekerti ke tak…”

Expectations mak mertua selalunya ni je ek? Kalau ni je kan bagus.. senang sikit hehe. Actually im afraid if one day when im married, I cant get along well with my in-law. Ramai org yg hubungan dengan mak mertua tak berape baik…takut jugak nak berhadapan dengan situasi macam tu..

Huhu… May Allah make everything easy for me…

Kesimpulannye after the meeting of both families, me and fadhil concluded that both families had agreed to let us get married. For now Me and fadhil also agreed to take our relationship as ‘ENGAGED’, so that if anyone approach me or him, we can just tell them that we’re engaged. Its easier to turn down people’s proposal this way, because you have the strong reason to turn it down-which is engaged. Sebelum ni aku agak susah nak say NO bile org approach. Sebabnye rase tak sampai hati. Tapi sekarang dah rase senang hati nak say NO ^_^

ENGAGED-is not a special period. Selagi tak nikah, sama je. Kene jage hubungan antara lelaki dan perempuan.. engaged-tak membolehkan kite untuk g dating pun.. atau bergayut setiap malam, atau ber-sayang-sayangan atau bersentuh-sentuhan atau ber-smoochies smoochies. jadi, soalan cepumas.. nape ramai org suke wat majlis bertunang yang meriah2? Kadang2 nampak da macam majlis org kawen. Wow. Maybe they have their own reasons or gaya berfikir yang berbeza.. Hmm mungkin juge majlis tu mcm untuk meraikan hari yang menggembirakan dan lebih kurang mcm kesyukuran? (kena buat soal selidik untuk tahu). As for me, I think its better not to waste so much money into that, and instead save it for your BIG DAY-hari kawen. If your money is melimpah ruah pun kan, its better to save it for ur future big-family-to-be.

Actually I told fadhil that I taknak bertunang. But if family dy insist, then I will follow their wish. Many people might ask me, WHY TAKNAK TUNANG?? Even my besties pun kata bertunang jelah~

Bertunang tak salah disisi Islam. Tak salah langsung. The reason is just ME. I think it’s too TROUBLESOME nak buat majlis bertunang. Nak ada sarung2 cincin, pakai baju cantik2, etc… I don’t see any need to do that. I really don’t like to tire myself out for such buang-mase-things. Moreover, tak suke pakai cincin. Nanti nak amik wudhu’, nak basuh pinggan ape sumer tu kene bukak cincin. Then bile da siap, terlupe la pulak nak pakai balik. Pastu cincin pun ilang…~

So last2 both of us decided camni. If fadhil’s family insist nak bertunang, ok boleh bertunang.. tapi tak ikut adat org melayu bertunang. Maksudnye takyah wat majlis2. Just between family, takde baju2 cantik atau pelamin what-so-ever, err cincin tu pn kalo dpt tak pakai kot-so beli cincin murah je.  Pastu takde hantaran2 langsung. Kire dtg bwk cincin je. Simple rite? Yeah I loike! Hehe.

Daaa. Enuff for now. Wassalam!

May Allah bless you! 


 love, 
The princess

Meeting of the TWO families

In the name of Allah the Almighty

March 12, 2011 (Saturday nite)

Fadhil and his parents came to my house. My dad also invited our relatives over for dinner and he told them that …

“keluarga fadhil nak datang MERISIK ana”

“Merisik? Oh baru tahu ni namenye merisik eh?” I asked makngah.

Haha. Truly, taktau ni namenye merisik. I just tahu yang parents fadhil nak datang umah kenal2 dengan me and my family. That’s all.

They (fadhil n parents+sister) arrived at our house quite late. At about 21:15 because they had their dinner first before came to our house. Sigh~ they forgot that abah has invited them over for dinner. Fadhil was the only one who hadn’t had his dinner ahead.

Nervous? Nope. Tak rase nervous pun.

Mase mule2 dorg sampai, I x sambut pun dorg kat pintu.. mom and dad yang sambut. Then after a while, I showed up. Jeng jeng jeng ketibaan bakal menantu yang ayu lagi sopan!! Haha. I was wearing a white purple baju kurung. And so, heading towards the battle field (lounge where all of them seated together).

First skali Nampak fadhil. I looked at him (he was also looking at me) and I bowed my head a bit while smiling. Dup..dap..dup..dap… what the heck. My heart was beating so fast. That was the first time I felt something special towards fadhil. Pelik. Kenape tetibe rase sesuatu dekat dy? Padahal sebelum ni memang xde rase pape langsung. Rase perasaan kpd seorang kawan pn tade. Mase fadhil 1^st time datang umah jumpe ummi abah, I greeted him kat pintu pagar (that was the first time he came over to our house. Dy pn tak sure umah ktorg yg mane). I invited him inside and also hidangkan air kat ummi abah n fadhil. At that time, my feelings were ZERO. Nak tau tak rase macam ape? Rase macam sambut kawan kakak datang rumah. As if benda2 yang berlaku tu takde kene mengena dengan aku. Bukanlah nak suruh kena ada perasaan ape2. Tapi, nak tunjuk yang betul2 tak berperasaan, nervous ke ape ke memang takde. Seolah-olah macam fadhil tu datang umah untuk nak kawen ngan kakak, bukan ngan aku. Tak terase penting or what-so-ever.  Hohoho.

But this time…it felt different… he made my heart beat faster than usual. I think that was when I developed a little feelings towards him.

After  greeted fadhil (greeted by bowing my head), I greeted her mother and sister. Salam tangan with a smiled. But no words. Then greeted his father with a bow. Pastu g duduk dekat sebelah ummi (this time kena join the company). Mase tu rase malu sket. Sebab sume tengok i. huhu. Blushing.

After my mom n dad sembang sikit2 with his mom and dad, my parents invited them for dinner. Mase tu baru tau yang dorg dah makan. Tapi terpaksalah dorg makan lagi sekali. Masa tengah hiding-hidang makanan kat tempat perempuan makan, fadhil’s mother asked:

“ana ke yang masak?”

My mom answered:

“tak, dy demam hari ni”

Yes, sepanjang siang tu I tito. Memang demam pun sejak semalam. Kepale pening2 jadi tak dapat nak tolong masak.

After dinner, I served the guests with chocolate cake(made by my sis). When I served the men’s table, rasa nak pandang fadhil. OMG what have gotten into me?? Asyik rasa nak pandang. But I stopped myself from doing so. Kena jaga pandangan! And also, I don’t want to develop anymore feelings for him. Not before we declared as husband and wife. So concentrate jelah buat keje. Kang cake jatuh kau jugak yang malu.

The men and women duduk separately. I sat at the lounge with ummi, fadhil’s mom and sister, makngah, mak uda and wanchik. The conversation started. Yang banyak bersembang was kakak fadhil je. His mom tak banyak cakap.. memang pendiam kot. Tapi banyak kali fadhil’s mom pandang aku! Perasan je tapi buat-buat tak perasan haha. After some time mak uda duduk sebelah fadhil’s mom and sembang2 dengan dy. While the other semua sembang dengan kakak fadhil.

The ‘kenal-kenal’ event went well till 23:30. Fadhil’s family went home.. tutup tirai dah.. fuuh penat melayan tetamu.

After fadhil’s family dah balek, mak uda pun mulalah bukak cerita, hasil sembang2 dy dengan ummi fadhil. A few questions that his mom asked were:

ummiFadhil: Ana ngan Fadhil tu selalu ke keluar eh? Dah berapa kali dorg keluar dating?

Makuda: Eh takdelah. Setahu saya dorg tak pernah keluar2 ni. Ana tu pun bukan jenis yang keluar2 sangat.

UmmiFadhil: yeke.. baguslah Alhamdulillah… macam mana dorg kenal? Melalui kawan ke?

Makuda: mungkin lah kot.. yang tu saya pn tak sempat nak Tanya dengan ana.

UmmiFadhil: sebelum ni fadhil tak pernah kenalkan saya dengan mana2 perempuan.. dy memang takde lah siapa2 sebelum ni. Dy jenis yang tak berkawan dengan perempuan sangat, selalu g masjid, dengar ceramah, suka pada benda2 agama.. Tiba-tiba dy bagitahu saya yang hati dy dah terbuka nak kawen.. terkejut saya..

Makuda: oh yeke.. ana tu pun suka pegi2 dgr ceramah macam fadhil tu jugak. Padan sangatlah dorg tu. Eloklah kalau fadhil dah kata sedia nak kawen.. bagi jelah dy kawen..

Ummi fadhil:……………………………………

Aha another question yang fadhil’s mom kept asking was

“kenapa ana tak sambung belajar?”

Mak uda just said that I have my own reasons as to why. But she didn’t know exactly.

Yes. I do have my own reasons. If she (fadhil’s mom) becomes to be my mother-in-law, I will tell her later inshaAllah. But the truth is, bukan aku tak sambung blaja. I did. Degree in microbiology-UKM. But I didn’t finish it. I stopped half way. And I have my reasons =)

To be continued ^_^

May Allah bless you! 


 love, 
The princess

The Knight meets 'HER' parents

In the name of Allah the Almighty.

After both of us had decided to move on together to the next stage, I sent an sms to abah and ummi. I wrote:

“ummi, abah, ana nak kawen. To Fadhil, 29, an engineer.”

I purposely sent sms to abah because I really didn’t know how to tell him face to face. Me and abah are not used to duduk sembang2 about anything pun. Not so close in the eyes, but always close at heart J. Sebab mase kecik2 dulu dad selalu g outstation. And more, dy garang -_-. Jadi mase kecik dulu selalu takut je dengan abah bile dy ade kat rumah (-__-‘). So sampai bile dah besa camni, masih tak biasa nak cakap-cakap, sembang-sembang. Harap satu ari nanti, akan lebih rapat dengan abah. (my heart really wish for that day to come, where I can sit leisurely, telling stories and laughing humorously with him) oh dad~

After I sent the sms, mom gave a reply. She said:

“kalau agama dy baik, ummi ok je..”

I smiled.. Alhamdulillah J

I waited for abah’s reply…. But none came. Finally I get his reply the next morning.

His reply was:

“dy budak jamaah ke?”

……err……speechless….so this was the first question from abah. I really didn’t asked fadhil about his political stand. So I replied to abah saying that I don’t know. And I asked whether he wants to meet fadhil or not. He said “ok. Tunggu ummi balik”.

March 4, 2011 (Friday nite-8:30)

Fadhil came to my house (alone) to meet my parents.

I didn’t join the conversation so I didn’t really know the details. But according to fadhil, it was just a sembang-sembang, kenal-kenal. That’s all.

After the meeting I asked mom’s opinion on fadhil. Mom said

“ok lah, tak diam sangat, boleh masuk bersembang”

Then I asked ummi to ask abah terima fadhil ke tak. Again, I didn’t have the courage to ask him straight haha. Tak tau nak tanye camne kat abah. And more, malu nak tanye -__-

The next day..

Dad gave me the GREEN LIGHT!

Alhamdulillah everything went well so far..

So the next step in the next chapter is gonna b: ‘Meeting of the Two families’

May Allah bless you!


 love, 
The princess